Prosperous Soul: Samantha Jones vs. Charlotte York

Hello fellow bloggers,

Once again my insomnia has lead me to blog this morning. We had a very rough night last night @ work, but like I was explaining to my family, my work does not feel like a job; I love what I do, whether it be putting in a heparin lock or assisting a difficult physician with patient placement- I love both of my jobs!

The night shift allows for a special type of bond to occur between patients- staff & coworkers. As a nurse & a logistics manager on the night shift, I have time to interact with my patients & coworkers during the most trying of times. I have been @ patient's bedside during the most scariest of situations & also been there to see them leave my facilities in better health. I share a special bond with my night crews @ both facilities, a bond that makes those relationship stick longer. I love that all my coworkers, even attendings appreciate my humor & miss me when I'm not @ work. I've had both, colleagues & patients tell me they look forward when I come to work; it elevates my confidence, it makes me feel appreciated! & that is just food for my soul!

As for my title: Samantha Jones vs. Charlotte York, I was having this conversation with both of my crews @ both facilities; & the discussion became heated when I was talking to both genders. The men were all for the Samantha Jones in me, but the woman sided with the Charlotte York side of me. I just became confused, but did come away with the following theory: to enjoy myself while I can & not take anything so seriously. I always tell my girlfriends who are married, that I miss my best friend, but @ the same time my guy friends tell me, that- best friend did not feel the same way about me because of how he betrayed me. I love my girlfriends for keeping hope alive & I love & appreciate my guy friends for keeping it real for me.

Somebody I use to respect & confide in, once told me that the things that I'm most scared of are worth delving into because those things are worth facing your fear for! Now looking back, I think he was just blowing smoke up my a**, but I do appreciate the sentiment.

I now believe that the Samantha Jones part of my ego emerges to protect me from getting hurt, but the Charlotte York part of my ego yearns for something stable in my life. As I get older & see my children becoming adults, the Charlotte York part of me wants someone to share my life with.

If anything I have learned how to appreciate & cherish those who love & appreciate me & that includes my family, friends & coworkers! As for those who betrayed me, it's all good- if you didn't appreciate what you had in me, it's your lost & my gain.

In the mean time I will enjoy those who I love & show me love back:

My Auntie, Mami & middle baby girl! Delilah supporters!