Good evening bloggers,
It’s been a world wind of personal events & milestones that have humbled me even more. At the same time it’s made me realize how lonely I am, talk about a double edge sword!
As I have revealed in the past that I do suffer from seasonal affective disorder (S.A.D.), which, for me happens in the fall when I lost my MVP & unconditional supporter, my brother: Victor. As time marches on & my family continues to grow & I conquer my accomplishments I feel more alone. Although I’m surrounded by family & close friends which I consider family, I can’t help to feel lonely.
I was having this discussion with my sister & was just saying that I wish I could share all these memories with someone worthy of me. Her response was that I have become greedy & want too much! I was surprised @ her response, but she also made me question myself? Is it possible to have it all?
She continued the conversation by telling me you have a beautiful family, a good & solid career & are blessed to be able to do the things I do, like traveling. Am I being a brat by wanting more? I do want it all! Is this too much to ask for?
Which brings me back to my title, my drive since I was 17 years old has been my family. I was blessed to be able to have 5 souls to manage & raise & now they are blessing me with immense happiness! From accomplishing educational & career goals to weddings & grandchildren & the whole gamut of merriment!
Maybe because I raised them mostly by myself, I’m suppose to enjoy them by myself!? But, I can’t help that I have this part of me that wants to share!
To be honest, the older I get the more pessimistic I become. But, I want to be optimistic & will what I deserve into my life.
On that note, I will share some of my joy with all of you!
It’s been a world wind of personal events & milestones that have humbled me even more. At the same time it’s made me realize how lonely I am, talk about a double edge sword!
As I have revealed in the past that I do suffer from seasonal affective disorder (S.A.D.), which, for me happens in the fall when I lost my MVP & unconditional supporter, my brother: Victor. As time marches on & my family continues to grow & I conquer my accomplishments I feel more alone. Although I’m surrounded by family & close friends which I consider family, I can’t help to feel lonely.
I was having this discussion with my sister & was just saying that I wish I could share all these memories with someone worthy of me. Her response was that I have become greedy & want too much! I was surprised @ her response, but she also made me question myself? Is it possible to have it all?
She continued the conversation by telling me you have a beautiful family, a good & solid career & are blessed to be able to do the things I do, like traveling. Am I being a brat by wanting more? I do want it all! Is this too much to ask for?
Which brings me back to my title, my drive since I was 17 years old has been my family. I was blessed to be able to have 5 souls to manage & raise & now they are blessing me with immense happiness! From accomplishing educational & career goals to weddings & grandchildren & the whole gamut of merriment!
Maybe because I raised them mostly by myself, I’m suppose to enjoy them by myself!? But, I can’t help that I have this part of me that wants to share!
To be honest, the older I get the more pessimistic I become. But, I want to be optimistic & will what I deserve into my life.
On that note, I will share some of my joy with all of you!
