It's been a long time since I've submitted an entry. I went back to my old habit of working allot. It seems to calm me when I'm serving others. My jobs don't feel like work & my coworkers have become my second families. Anyway, so much has happened since my last entry, one of my staff members laid his wife to rest, my son had a crisis situation, & I am currently in CO awaiting my first grand daughter to be born! I also applied to grad school again, I'm anxiously awaiting my acceptance letter. I also applied to a full time position @ SBMC & am considering going to critical care @ HUMC. As always, my mind & my body stay busy. I've come to believe that, that is the only way I know how to exist. I just feel like I still have so much to accomplish in my life. I also started dating, that lasted: briefly! I did meet some nice guys, but they currently don't fit into my schedule.
I'm finally very comfortable with my current social situation. I also started a new home based business, which will allow me to travel & make money @ the same time. If you're interested, please, let me know.
Having gone to a funeral just a few days ago & now awaiting my grand daughter's birth has made me more aware that life marches on. Life has a way of reminding me that no matter how difficult my situation may be, life will move forward. So, I've decided to stay as positive as I can be & look @ situations & @ people in a different perspective. I now appreciate what I have & don't dwell on what I want. I do try to work towards my goals, but I'm more real with myself & what my capabilities are, and that allows me to be @ peace with myself.
Having that kind of inner peace makes a world of a difference when dealing with certain situations, I try not to revert to my old ways. But, I work on myself every day & take deep breaths & meditate before I take any actions. For example, this Sunday that just passed was my first Mother's Day without my mom, & instead of feeling sad or sorry for myself, I spent time with my first born & one of my best friends & stayed strong as we visited her grave & set flowers on it. I flexed my strength & felt good about it.
So, I leave ya'll with these memories as my life marches on:
Celebrating my god son's 26th bday
Love my sista
relaxing & reflecting
tracking my fitness
buying my youngest art supplies
Me @ work looking boss
hanging out with my girls in NYC
my other sista, love her to
showing off my hard housework
making my dwelling more cozy
this bitch can do anything!
Easter dinner /w my fam
me on my 10th night in a row
after my 11th night I had the audacity to go to a party, cause that's the type of bitch I am!
my Bdids, luv my white sista
my lil Indian boy toy- luvs me some him
spoiling my god daughter
my daily mental breaks, help me focus
one of my spoiled brats
what I'm looking forward to
my Honduran & Filipino sistas- luv them so much- I draw strength from them
my first mom's day w/o my lil mami
needed to draw strength from my strong women
my baby caddying, finally! working lol
My daughter in law abiut to give birth to my grand daughter, Somaya
my son being supportive, so proud of him, he is an awesome dad, already!
So, you see, life marches on & it's up to you to stay positive & be a force to reckon with!
I am truly blessed every day & night to be able to be here for those I love!
