Tuesday, March 13, 2018

My Lead

Good Evening bloggers,

I’m glad to report that I have been off for the past 7 days, & it has been a world wind. From merely escaping a toxic relationship to spending time with my family & friends, including my god-daughter, to cooking & cleaning.
Let’s begin with the toxic relationship I merely escaped. So, I met this guy on an online dating app. He seemed genuine, he was consistent with communicating, & we seemed to vibe during our conversations. We finally met after 3 days of calling each other, video chatting & texting. He was very handsome & was saying all the right things, & he seemed legit. Most importantly, part of me believed in what he was saying. But, we all know, that actions speak louder than words. So, I allowed him to say all he wanted to say & had nothing negative towards his conversation. He was promising the world & advancing too quickly, I sat silently with a puzzled look on my face. Some days passed by & his communication became transient, then silent. 3 days later I get a text that read: I am “a wonderful woman with an amazing soul & he wishes me well”.
I guess I was too amazing for him & he realized that before we took it any further. I’m so glad I have angels above watching over me, & they make sure that what’s not meant for me stays out of my life.
On a lighter note, I spent some much needed time with some important people in my life. I also cooked some awesome dishes on my nights off. I filed my taxes, cleaned my house, did some laundry & felt a little bit more human! You know, sleeping nights & being active during the day allowed that feeling of humanity again. But, it also reminded me that I have allot more to accomplish in this lifetime & I have to tackle it sooner than later.
As for my title for this entry, it has come to my attention that men, in general, feel the need to lead their women. After much thought & conversations with a couple of my close female & male friends, I have to decide whether I can allow a man to lead me. This concept is hard to swallow for me, just because, I have been misled by the few men I have trusted. So you see, this is my dilemma should I have faith & take down my walls, or should I continue to lead myself & continue to be lonely & not share all these wonderful experiences I am creating, by myself!?!?!?
I’m always so thankful & humbled for the people that have graced me with their presence. I have learned  so much & have experienced allot of things that were unimaginable in my past. And as always I am grateful for everything that God has blessed me with!
So allow me to share my blessings:


















Thursday, March 8, 2018

I am woman hear me roar

Good evening bloggers,

In honor of National Woman’s Day I blog to you from home. After being hit by a nor’easter that dumped more than a foot of snow, I had to go out there & dig myself out of it! I was the only woman out there shoveling, all my male neighbors were impressed that I was able to climb on my car & used my arms & legs to clean off my car. Not only did I shovel myself out I had the nerve to clean/shovel a second parking spot so I can move my car over. Then I pulled out my 6 foot steel ladder to tie up some cable lines that had collapsed on my car & my neighbors car. All my neighbors were cheering me on & Anne, my next door neighbor, tells me that I’m fearless & she can see how men find me intimidating.
As we continued to converse & she asked me where my son was, unfortunately he got stuck @ work & was unable to get home. He’s the only one left @ home with me, & he usually shovels Anne’s & my car out. I explained to her that I’m not the one to wait on anyone, if I need something done, I just do it myself; I waits for no one! She replies by saying I admire you, I’ve been your neighbor for 6 years & I have watched you go to work, play with your grandchildren, grill meals for your family & raise your kids successfully, & all by yourself. My response, I have no choice, God chooses his strongest soldiers for the biggest wars. And I continue to be the warrior she needs me to be!
I will continue to be “too passionate”, “too strong”, “too aggressive “, & whatever these men call me because they’re too weak to be with me!
So, yes I am an almighty woman, hear my grand roar!
I’m not a victim, I’m a victor!
I turn tragedy into triumph!
I will continue to be me!
Crazy, loud, intelligent, loving, & stronger than ever!