Monday, July 23, 2012

Good Off Days

Good morning fellow bloggers!

I have been picking up extra shifts @ both jobs- needless to say, this has cut my days off in half. But, I'm not the one to complain, I am grateful & blessed to have 2 jobs that allow me the opportunity to work extra hours; I have seen my own family struggling to even obtain one job!
I have put sleep off & have decided that I am not going to sleep on my limited days off. So, this week I only had one day off & me & the sis handled some business, then did what we do best: shop for bargains, then discovered a little Thailand Cuisine spot in East Hanover, NJ. I also discovered an African American owned consignment store near my complex & it has become one of my favorite spots.
Please enjoy my leisure time:
Chicken dumplings, shrimp toast, & pineapple fried rice:


water & ginger ale:


Mango /w sticky rice & coconut sauce:


The sis & me spending quality time on our only day off, this wk:


The ambiance of the restaurant was convincing:


I bowed to Buddha


My 4LW brothas & me, enjoying a well earned BF after a torturous 13 hr shift:


An image I meditate to, & my goal for this weekend, when I'm finally off!


Why I tell myself that it's all worth it! My patients make my nursing job lovable!
Thanks


I have not had a chance to find some quotes, but I have a great one that I borrowed from Ciel, a CTS RN from SBMC, who was celebrating her birthday on the unit last week:

Live a little & laugh allot!

Another quote was shared with me- Family, as crazy as it may be, is the most important thing in the world & sometimes they are not blood relatives.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Enjoying my new life

Good Evening fellow bloggers,

I have been working & really enjoying my few days off! Although I lack sleep, I can't complain. I am enjoying new & different things & I am blessed to have my work families in my life. I am really starting to love the new me, I've become more spontaneous & adventurous. Please enjoy all my new adventures below:

Enjoying a drink with my &
4LW brother, Barry- on Wednesday night!


 My chicken club sandwhich @ Joe's Grill in Paramus


 Barry & me enjoying dinner on our night off!

 Gilbert & me on our mountain bike expedition, Saturday morning-before work!

 In the midst of a mountain!

 me 40 minutes after in the mountain & after 3 falls!

 my view while on the ground!

 My injury!


 NJ state botantical gardens:

 My second attempt to get use to shifting gears

 Another view of the botanical garden

 A different view of the botanical gardens

 Verona park on our dog hike, Sunday

 The lake @ Verona park

 the little island in the lake

 another view of the same

 Minh, Miley, Marley & me

 Joanna, Miley, Marley & me


 Us hiking, & yes we had doggie bags & water!

 Marley scared of Miley

Marley & me on the bridge

 Deanna,  her family, Dasha & me @ lunch in Maplewood Deli

 McCloones patio view


 Samson (IM resident @ SBMC) & Delilah, we thought we should document this event!

 Dinner @ McCloones

 Dessert @ McCloones

Quotes:








This last quote has been fundamental to me & I have embraced this process & continue to explore my options


Monday, July 2, 2012

Stop dwelling/Transitions

Good Morning Fellow bloggers, I've been busy working & taking care of my family, it has been exhausting juggling all the responsibility, but I have faith that things will get better. I am starting to let go of friendships I thought were worth having, but I was hesitant & pondering on that decision. At the same time I am developing new relationships with my acquaintances @ SBMC. It seems like my work family is growing, I see these folks more than I see my biological children! Since nightshift is a different breed, we kind of depend on each other to get through the 13 hour shifts. I have added people to my work family, a couple of the ER nurses & techs have become really close to me. There are also some close ties with a few of my PACU nurses & a few of my respiratory & Oncology nurses as well, & I can not forget my ER docs & NPs!
I was talking to a couple of my staff nurses who are going through some tough situtations & they seem to think I am a strong person & seek my advice. I had one of my PACU nurses tell me, she wishes she was more like me, in strength & in humor, thanks Jennifer. But, to be honest I wasn't strong enough to leave my marriage, I was basically manipulated out of my home & lied to, & not to mention betrayed. I was devastated, I was physically & emotionally decapitated, I had become depressed & sad, I lost like 15 pounds in a matter of weeks, had hair loss & was inconsolable! I thought I married my soul mate, who took my family & me on, & would have never thought that he would cheat on me- we did everything together & were a force to reckon with. It was a total shock when he confessed his affair to me! All my friends thought I would be the one to step out of my marriage, just because I am such a sensual person, but I didn't. My loyalty to those I love is greater than any of my other characteristics, & I pride myself in that. So, Jennifer & Jobecca, thank you for the generous compliments, but I've come a long way & it wasn't easy, because even after everything my exhusband has done & not done, I will always love him. But, I love myself more & know that I deserve better & someone who is going to love me equally & not take me for granted.  So, I am no longer dwelling on what was, or who was & I am welcoming new transtions in my life. I still keep in touch with some of my SANE (sexual assault nurse examiners) in NM & they seem to think that I am a "mighty" woman & they admire the fact that I have kept strong & have continued to aspire & eventually conquer my dreams. I am so exited about the accelerated program for my DNP (doctorate of nurse practitioner).
But in the mean time, I continue to work & enjoy my new found work family. I would like to share some losses & gains that we've had within the last month:

Saying farewell to one of my ER techs, Steph- im going to miss yo crazy a**!

Steph & Janice (Peds ER, RN), she crazy 2!


Jaz (my diva guru & ER PAR) & Steph

I'm going to miss you Steph!


Steph & Adam (ER RN)


Jaz & Ms. Cricket EST (ghetto fabulous)


Ms. Cricket & Alicia (my make up guru & ER PAR)


Peter my ER PCC


Ms. Cricket & Steph (so dramatic)


Dr. Handler, one of my ER Docs


My mami & daughter, Sasha, as they gain strength


K my ER PCC, celebrating her bday @ work!


Give me some chocolate cake! K


Kelly, my coworker going to maternity leave- I made her a diaper cake! 
Love you Kells- congrats & good luck!


As you can see, my work family has grown- between my Hackensack sisters & brothers, & now I have more sisters & brothers @ Saint Barnabas. Life has kept me busy with work, & now that my daughters have graduated & my older son has fled my nest, I only have Shami (my 16 yr old son) to finish raising. My life has been full of surprises- some negative, some postive- but all are molding me to a person I am proud of. I still have many other transitions to go through & goals to achieve, I can't wait to see what God has in store for me, I will embrace it fearlessly!

Quotes:



As I work towards my goals & navigate through my life, I have to thank God for blessing me with friends who are genuine & blessing me with strength & courage to get through whatever situation I am in! Thank you God for all of my blessings, my health, strength, humor & not to forget my ferocious work ethic! I hope that my example penetrates through my children! Everything I do is because they drive me, they push me to be the most I can be- I love my brats:

From front to back: Sade, Sasha, Shadasha, Shuan, & Shamorr- my pride & joy, my triple threat (girls) & dynamic duo (boys)  in the hole! MY DRIVE!