It has been a long time since I've submitted an entry, but I have good reason. I welcomed my 1st grandson & spent time with my 1st grand daughter! It has been amazing to see my kids become responsible & caring adults. I guess the apples don't fall too far from the tree. I am so proud of my son, Shuan (Bebe), & my daughter, Sasha, for becoming such good parents. I watched in amazement on how they are handling parenthood. It humbles me to see them support each other & be so loving towards one another.
While being around all of my kids, we had a conversation regarding healthy relationships, & I realized that everybody defines a healthy relationship differently. For me it's a combination of things & personality traits. I've been lucky to have experienced those qualities & things, but, it has been a difficult & trying time finding it again. Like I was telling my family, there are certain situations I refuse to expose myself to & I realize that I have to be willing to put myself out there. For the last 4 years I have chosen situations that I deem to be safe for me, but in reality the situations I chose for myself were toxic & inappropriate. It has taken me 3 years to make the decision of eliminating certain people from my life; but, @ the same time, I feel the need to help those same people through there situation. I'm quickly learning how to distance myself from toxic situations. I have to say, it's hard for me because I genuinely care for these people.
My closest friends have rallied behind me & are making sure I don't relapse into my hold habits, & for that I am eternally grateful. I can truly say that I am too blessed to be stressed! I have an awesome support system, which includes my family & friends.
Allow me to share these beautiful people & experiences that I am so blessed to have in my life:
My children, who are now caring & positive adults
My growing family, I love them so much
