Finally feeling my old self!

Good morning bloggers,

I am happy to let you know I am finally feeling like my old self (prior to marriage), of course this gal has learned some hard lessons; but I can proudly say I put it all together by myself! I have managed to do things, I had previously thought, I was incapable of doing. I guess when one is in survival mode you do things & surprise yourself of what you are really able to do! I look back to last year, & alls I can say is, you go girl! My new office is not like my old, but my responsibility is much greater! Managing 17 units, including an ER & PACU- with all the different personalities & dynamics, not to mention all specialty MDs, has been challenging. But my colleagues tell me I make it look easy (I think it's my craziness, that keeps me level headed). I always approach things with humor & I have to say humor is a very powerful healing tool, even when your dealing with hot tempered MDs that want their patients admitted yesterday! They always leave my office laughing or smiling. Thank you God for blessing me with the power of comedy! Let me share my lil office with you:

Not much to look @, but this desk top holds allot of power & moves patients, housekeepers, & even MDs; how you like me now!?!?!? Lol.... And as you can see I have a constant reminder of why I sacrifice sleep every night! My brats keep Mami motivated, & my water bottle helps in that endeavor!

As for trying to keep fit, I try to jog @ least 1 mile a day, & this is what Marley & I encounter on a daily:

And I am also happy to report that everybody has settled into our new home! Shami has even found a lil playmate, which makes me very nervous, because she is a female! Even Marley has found a lil playmate, but as you can see, she thinks she is human & believes dogs are beneath her (that's my fault, she's my little princess)!

Quote for the day:

P.S. To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance!

Slowly waking up

Good Afternoon fellow bloggers,

It has been a while since I've blogged, but, as you already know I am always working hard! But, I am slowly discovering that I can also play hard. I have met many wonderful people & found that there are 2 sides to every story, and I am slowly waking up my second side. A couple of my male friends, that I work with are DJs & 1 owns a salsa club in NYC. I have been going to the city allot, lately, & whenever I am there it's like my heart tells me, this is were I belong. I have been to allot of places & always find myself comparing it to the east coast & have found there is no comparison. We (the east coast) have the richest & deepest culture & I have been enjoying every culture it has to offer. From the food to the music, to the people & their traditions.

Enjoying some good Filipino food in NYC with my 3 beautiful daughters:

Enjoying Salsa dancing with my Hispanic Sista in Washington Heights NY:

Gracias Francisco por invitarlos, gosamos, bailamos y pasamos la noche bien contentas!

Enjoying the Irish & Filipino culture @ a BBQ with my Filipino Sista in Pompton Lakes NJ:

And finally coming home to the loves of my life:

P.S. Shami thinks he is too cool to be featured in my blog & I still miss my Bebe immensely!

The plan: finish grad school, assist my babies with their education, then move back to the city to fulfill my destiny as a true New Yorker!

Today's Quote:

Poem for today:

Choose-
I choose....
To live by choice, not by chance;
To make changes, not excuses;
To be motivated, not manipulated;
To be useful, not used;
To excel, not compete.
I choose self-esteem, not self pity.
I choose to listen to my inner voice (& honey, it has allot to say!),
not the random opinions of others!
I choose to be me, because it's what makes me BEAUTIFUL!

I am an El Salvadorian princess a descedant of Mayan royalty, with Americana engraved deeply!
I am book smart, street smart, & savy, I refuse to be taken for granted (again)!
I am beautiful inside & out! My children have the best of me in them!
And for that I am eternally grateful to my GOD!

My take on love

Hello fellow bloggers!

How are we? Anyway, I'm off for 2 nights after a long week, & before a long week ahead.                                                                                                              So in between jobs, I have been psychoanalyzing my belief of love?!?!? I really need to go back to school to pre-occupy my mind with more important things! SMH, anyway I have been torturing myself, by watching a whole bunch of "chick flicks"; after watching them I try to psychoanalyze what love means to me. I have been blessed to be in love twice in my life time, hopefully the third time will be the real thing. There are different kinds of love & I have been honored & can honestly say I have been blessed to know what a love for a child is, in my case children, love for a best friend, in my case a couple of best friends, & the love for a spouse, in my case 2,  the father of my children & my ex-husband, & I can't forget to mention the love of a pet, in my case - there were 3. I've learned from all my loves, & I hope my next love will be eternal & genuine.

I know as human beings we have a longing to be loved & love. I have discussed this @ length with my sistas @ HUMC & a couple of my brothers @ SBMC & I have learned that men & women love differently. Women, we love with our hearts, on the other hand, most men love with their body parts. And time is what can either break the relationship or make it stronger. I was having this conversation with a young man, & he mentioned that maybe this is the case, but some men fall in love with their hearts in time & others look for the one who brings that out of them. I thought this was interesting, I thought about my situation & believe this is what happened to my relationship- but jeez 13 years? He reminded me that there are marriages that fall apart after 20, 30 & sometimes 40 years (although rarely). So he encouraged me to keep optimistic about me finding true love, he reminded me that I have a beautiful soul & a not so bad exterior, LOL. Thanks Irv for your kind words & your wife is lucky to have you as her husband. 

As for myself, I think I will continue to rediscover myself & push my limits. I have so much more to accomplish & I can't help but to be optimistic & open myself up to the many experiences I have yet to have. 

Quotes:

And for the negative person in my life:

Everything you have tried to do to me, has only made me stronger- Thank You!

And this one is for the people I love dearly & continue to inspire me to push hard going forward:

And these people are the reason I wake up & push myself like there is no tomorrow! I love them so much- those damn brats! But, they are my deepest love!