Blessings

Good evening bloggers,

So it’s been a minute, I’ve been busy as usual working & spending time with loved ones. Recently met some one who has engaged my time & I have been spending quite some time with him. I’m happy to report that because of him, I’ve slowed down my work ethic & have set some entrepreneurial  goals for myself.

I’m also ecstatic to report that I am a Lola again for the 3rd time to beautiful twin boys: Samson & Silas. Hence the title to this entry, blessings. Blessings to me come in all shapes & forms, but the best feeling in the world is to be a blessing to someone else. You see, as a nurse, I have been told that I am a blessing to my patients, to be able to nurture them back to health. But one of the greatest feelings of gratification is being able to be blessing to random people.

Recently, on a romantic weekend getaway, as Kellz, my significant other, & I were getting off an elevator we were approached by an elderly lady who was requesting help. She was staying in a room near ours & could not figure out how to navigate the remote control to get to CNN. She explained to us that she called the concierge’s desk & they tried to walk her through it but it was a failed attempt.  So being who I am, we went to her room & assisted her & got her to CNN & taught her how to use the remote control, so she felt empowered & confident to be able to navigate through her entertainment needs that night. As we were exiting her room she stated we were a blessing.

As we walked back to our room, I was describing my whole good karma philosophy to Kellz. As people we always expect others to do good by us, but as human beings we should all practice being good to each other & go out of our way to do random kind acts for others. If more people just practiced being kind to each other our world would be such a nicer place!

So let me share with you my good karma:

                        my second daughter’s wedding, Sasha, missing Shuan & Shadasha

                                                 Kellz & me enjoying dinner @ Iberia’s

                                                    Sasha, Sade, Shamorr, & Shadasha

                                       Burnell, Sasha’s husband, Sasha & my grandson Eli

                                                         Somaya, Samson & Silas

                                                      Eli, Sade, Sasha, & Shadasha

                                               Me, Sade, Sasha, Eli, Shuan & Somaya

                                                                      Mami & me

                                                           My tribe called mess & me

                                                                   My Eli & me

                                                              Samson, Silas & me  

                                                                     My Somaya & me

                                                                       My Nene

                                                    My work babies, Christina & Jessica

                                                                  Pablo & me

                                                             Pablo, Kimmy & me

                                                           Dani, Charms & me

                                                       One of my grateful patients

                                                       Another very grateful patient

                                                       See, they even write it out for me!

Mi Familia

Good evening bloggers,
 It’s been a world wind of personal events & milestones that have humbled me even more. At the same time it’s made me realize how lonely I am, talk about a double edge sword!
As I have revealed in the past that I do suffer from seasonal affective disorder (S.A.D.), which, for me happens in the fall when I lost my MVP & unconditional supporter, my brother: Victor. As time marches on & my family continues to grow & I conquer my accomplishments I feel more alone. Although I’m surrounded by family & close friends which I consider family, I can’t help to feel lonely.
I was having this discussion with my sister & was just saying that I wish I could share all these memories with someone worthy of me. Her response was that I have become greedy & want too much! I was surprised @ her response, but she also made me question myself? Is it possible to have it all?
She continued the conversation by telling me you have a beautiful family, a good & solid career & are blessed to be able to do the things I do, like traveling. Am I being a brat by wanting more? I do want it all! Is this too much to ask for?
Which brings me back to my title, my drive since I was 17 years old has been my family. I was blessed to be able to have 5 souls to manage & raise & now they are blessing me with immense happiness! From accomplishing educational & career goals to weddings & grandchildren & the whole gamut of merriment!
Maybe because I raised them mostly by myself, I’m suppose to enjoy them by myself!? But, I can’t help that I have this part of me that wants to share!
To be honest, the older I get the more pessimistic I become. But, I want to be optimistic & will what I deserve into my life.
On that note, I will share some of my joy with all of you!

Growing pains

Good morning bloggers,

So, yes @ 47 years old, I am still growing & having pains /w the growth that is occurring. As ya’ll already know I am always challenging myself, physically, mentally & yes, emotionally. Yes you read that correctly, emotionally. I have let my guard down & have opened myself up, just got a little tired of doing things solo & not having anybody to share them with.

So here I am challenging myself @ all angles, & I’m happy to report that I just passed my state exam for life insurance, which allowed me the confidence that I needed. It also reminded me that I am still capable of achieving all the goals I have set up for myself!

I always thought that raising my 5 amazing human beings was my legacy, but I have so much more to offer this universe. Obtaining this lisence  just reminded me that I can achieve anything that I set out to conquer. I do have a tendency to set my goals high, but I’ve proven to myself that I am well capable of anything.

As for my growing pains, it has been difficult for me to open up or expose myself to the idea of an intimate relationship, I’ve become quite comfortable being selfish with myself. But, having to attend my BFF’s & daughter’s weddings, has made me realize that I do want (not need), a partner in crime, so I can share the awesome & simple things in life.

I’m also glad to report that I will be welcoming 2, yes 2 more grandsons to my growing family. So you see, it’s situation like these that I would like to share with a special someone. So wish me luck & positive vibes!

Repeat this prayer: Jesus you are
my strength. I love you; I need
you; heal me; heal my family; and
heal my friends . Watch God work!
 Amen!!!
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