It feels like an eternity since I last posted an entry! So much has happened & I am slowly awakening. I know I promised my lil mami to slow down my ferocious work ethic, but given the demographics of my current location, that was an impossible promise to uphold! So, needless to say, I am back working 6 days a week, with 1 day left to take care of my stubborn father & janky ass baby son! both whom I love very much & I would not trade them for the world. My son is doing well with his treatment & has managed to pull up his grades. My father is finally walking & his mentation is improving with time, he is definitely a work in progress. Reconnecting with my father has given my already strong drive a power boost. He is my constant reminder of where I came from & he definitely reminds me that without hard work you can't achieve anything. At the same time, his ignorance serves as a constant reminder to further my knowledge & therefore my education!
The beginning of this year was a rough & rude awakening, having lost one of my dearest nephews to the war on drugs has humbled our family as a whole! My nephew, Devin, struggled with drugs for the last almost 5 years & was overwhelmed & gave into suicide. I'm not the one to hide situations like this, I feel I should take this negative & turn it into a positive, his death will not be in vain! His death will serve as a constant reminder that we are not alone & we, as family, have to help each other no matter what the situation! His death also awakened an awareness in me, the one of not taking my kids for granted! I know that they're almost grown & I have always been so busy working to make sure they have things, but I was taking away the most precious thing they possess & need, me! After all, I am the only constant person in their life! I have been there through thick & thin. Through, heart breaks, promotions, graduations, tribulations, addictions, loss, separation, struggles, well you get the point!
This untimely passing has awaken a need to spend more time with my adult children, I love them so much! As I spend more quality time with them I see allot of me in each & every one of them. Some things are good & others are, well, not so good. But, in my almost 43 years of living, I know & understand that life is about evolution & reinventing oneself. And with each situation, whether it be bad or good, we learn & evolve into something better. I hope & pray that my kids don't have to suffer what I endured & conquered & I know deep in my soul that I gave them a better start than what I had. But, I can't say that I regret my past, my past has molded me into the strong & positive person I am today, & I can only improve from this day forward!
Allow me to share a little piece of my life!
Me @ with straight hair
Spending time with Mira & shami
My sister, for real
My seeds missing 1, but,blooming beautifully
Me with wavy hair @ work
will post more recent pics, when I learn how to navigate my photo library! lol
