My chaos is my Calm

Good Morning my fello blogger,
It's been a while since I blogged, but I have been busy working & taking care of my family. I also have been busy going out with my work family @ both facilities. All my colleagues ask me how is it that I have time to do half the things I do! I always tell them, when you love the people  you do things  with, you make sure you make time for them.  I work allot &  on my days off I try to enjoy the people I love & try to experience new & different things. People I work with always tell me that they look forward to working with me because I'm such a positive & funny influence; my patients request me & patients that I don't even care for know of me & know my name. It's always nice when my patients remember me, but when they're able to tell me why they remember me..... That always humbles me. At my other job as a logistics manager, I always try to make myself available to my colleagues & staff. My work ethic has caught my superiors' attention & I have been receiving compliments from directors & people I didn't even know were watching me. I only have God to thank for my ability to work this hard & have the energy to be a positive force- thank you GOD!
Some of my colleagues think I'm crazy because I work too much, they say I take that saying to another level: but I always make sure I make it to church every Sunday, and make Sunday dinner for the brats, & spend as much time as I can with the people I love. I am very fortunate to have 2 jobs that I love, when I go to work, it's not a chore; although I do tend to work allot, it doesn't feel like work to me, because I feel like I am making a difference in the lives of the people I work for: my patients! Keeping busy has helped me cope with my losses & giving has always been the only way I know how to care for other people, maybe I give too much of myself; but it feels so good to be able to give to those in need!
Doing all these things & staying busy calms my soul. My oldest daughter always tells me you're doing too much.  My youngest daughter calls me doingtoomuch.com, but honestly, I think I don't do enough. As I have mentioned before my chaotic schedule has been my therapy for almost 2 years now. Although most of the time I don't see my family, my patients remind me that what I do impacts their lives profoundly. I definitely will be making more time for my family, I have made a promise to myself to spend more time with my brats & Mom, & that's exactly what I'm going to do.

So let me just share with you guys a little of my busy life:

Taking care one of my youngest pts in my SBMC Peds ER

Celebrating Sasha's 23rd bday:

Celebrating Dasha's 22nd bday:

Celebrating Shami's 16th bday:

Dede's 24th bday:

Shami's dental surgery:

early dinner /w Mami:

@ the SBMC ER Christmas party:

@ work on my cardio-vascular unit @ SBMC

Hanging out /w my sista:

Matching managers in pin striped grey & white:

Christmas shopping for my church:

Janice & me (1 of my Peds ER nurses from SBMC) Love her:

My Marley, she is so precious:

Janice & Arlene & me ( my other favorite Peds ER nurse from SBMC):

Denise & me @ Sade's 24th bday party:

Cooking Sunday dinner for my tribe called mess:

@ work /w my A team: Jess & Ant:

Hanging out /w my brats: Sash & Shami:

1 of my favorite CPAR from SBMC ER: Vetta:

My godson & oldest daughter, Fah & Sade @ her party:

Me in the midst of my Sunday- Monday hustle:

Richard & me matching on a Wednesday day of usual business:

My Christmas tree in the office /w gifts from my beloved staff @ SBMC:

 /w Santa & my 4LW family @ HUMC: Barry, Lorna, Nieva, Gil, Evie & Lils:

 Me on a Tuesday bullying ES to clean my stat beds:

So you see I am very grateful & blessed for the people in my life & the energy that God blesses me with to enable me to do the things I do!

TRULY BLESSED TO BE ME!

No Quotes needed!

Loosing my artistic edge

Good Morning fellow bloggers,

It has been a long time since I written an entry. Working full time, part time, taking care of my mom & family has not allowed me any time to posts entries on my blog! Writing has been my escape for many things, and although I love both of my jobs & both my work families, & taking care of my loved ones, writing has always been my personal reprieve.
I do have to say, I have learned how to have fun @ work & enjoy the people I work with. The business of healing other human beings can be very stressful & difficult, but when you enjoy what you do & appreciate the people you do it with & have fun while doing it- it makes it all worth the stress. There are many nights, & mornings  that I come home & want to write/blog all my positive experiences, but am physically & mentally exhausted.
My co-workers always ask me, how do you have time to keep up with your blog, & I always respond by saying: I love to write & I will always make time for it no matter what. With my new schedule I have not been able to write as much as I would like, but knowing me, it's only a matter of time before I figure out how to squeeze it in to my already hectic schedule.
Writing gives me a high I can't explain, I'm always thinking, analyzing, & processing  things in my mind, the easy part is putting it down to paper, in my case cyber space.
I do have to apologize to my followers, for not posting new entries. But, I will try to make up for it by catching you up with pictures & captions. This is especially for Michelle, who tells me that she reads my blog just to catch up with me- & Michelle I appreciate you for that. As for my other friend, Monique, I am seriously considering taking my entries & presenting them to a publisher & I am sure you will be there with me!
As for my title, hmm, it feels like I'm loosing my artistic edge, but I will definitely make time to nurture it, I owe it to myself to save it & feed it, after all it can be my ticket to the better things in life!
With that said, let me catch you up on my limited social life & abundant work life:

A sorority gathering:

Paula, me & Michelle

 Michelle & me

Me cutting up!

 Had to take another one of Michelle & me!

@ NPD Scholarship Fundraiser

 My sisters from CLBC:

Anthony & me @ work

 My so loved staff @ SBMC: Harry & Nanj

My partner in crime @ SBMC: Jessica

@ the Environmental services office:

Quotes for today:

Enjoy your day! Muah

My Flaws

Hello fellow bloggers,
I hope everybody survived Hurricane Sandy & prepared well for this current noreaster, we're enduring. My daughter, Sasha & I are currently @ McCloone's utilizing their Wi Fi. We didn't have power for an entire week & when we finally were up & running our cable & Wi Fi was knocked out. So, here we are, Sasha: writing a paper for grad school & me: blogging. I was off for 7 beautiful days, in which I enjoyed spending time with my brats & my Mami. So, as for the title for this entry: When I returned to work, & have been for the past 6 days, one of my colleagues pulled me aside & told me about myself. I was so glad that she approached me personally & privately & am grateful that she addressed her concerns directly to me & not go behind my back! People who have problems with me, should address me, I am approachable. I never said I was perfect!
My colleague, says to me, "I know you have a good heart & you're a genuine person, but there are times when your humor is inappropriate", I responded by saying, "First, I want to tell you how much I appreciate the fact that you came to me."Of course, I apologized to her, & hugged her & asked her specifically what behavior she wanted me to stop. I winded up calling her when I was working on this entry to apologize again & tell her about this entry.
I know that I am not perfect, and I am a work in progress. As I evolve to the best I can be, it doesn't hurt for people to tell me what areas I need improving. As a mother of 5 kids I have the tendency to shelter them. As a daughter, I am always trying to appease my mother. As a friend, I am always trying to help others. As a single, divorced woman, I suck @ attracting somebody worthy. As a Leo, I will never give up. As a worker, I always work hard. and because of my personality I am outspoken & have a wicked sense of humor. As a woman, mom, & daughter, I am an emotional being; because I love hard, care dearly & aim to please!

So you see, I have plenty of flaws, but I am aware of them, & I do work on them. People around me know that I'm still under construction- so you see I am approachable & constantly evolving.

Tonight's quotes:

Keep your head up. God gives his hardest battles to is strongest soldiers! (And I am a very strong soldier)- unknown author

Don't let anyone's ignorance, hate, drama or negativity stop you from being the best person God wants you to be!- unknown author

The best & most beautiful things in life cant be seen or even touched- they must be felt with the heart!
- Hellen Keller

It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light,
- Aristotle Onassis

Believe you can & you're halfway there- Theodore Roosevelt

Nothing is impossible, the word itself says I'm possible!- Audrey Hepburn

Who I am

I am a passionate and forthright person who can be very affectionate. My future mate will be chosen for their willingness to allow me to take the lead, shine brightly, and be independent, they have to be uninhibited & self-conscious. As accepting as I am, my mate needs to be an intellectual equal to make the cut. I am a very  loving, fun, and a giving person to those in my personal life.
I have been told that I have the tendency to be very generous, loyal and giving. I will go out of my way to help even when it conflicts with my own schedule. I have a strong, confident personality with the ability to make almost everyone comfortable. I am unassuming and gracious, I love to host parties and events, interacting is my second nature. My close friends are chosen for their ability to keep up with my energy along with a strong sense of dignity and a commitment to individual values. When it comes to my family I am very involved, and will do whatever it takes to defend my loved ones. Loyalty for me is for a lifetime. I pride myself on being there for my family through thick and thin.
"I will" is my key phrase, I am blessed with a lot of energy and I am always going to be busy, regardless of whatever else is happening. I am ambitious, creative, and optimistic. It's not enough for me to just do the job, in order to suffice, it must be done to the absolute best of my ability. Once  I am committed, I will go all-out.
Leadership comes naturally to me. I love to surround myself with the the people I love. I have a generous spirit, and will give away my last dollar to help a friend. I am confident  and have been told that I have a sick work ethic, working 8 to 10 nights in a row (13 hour shifts). My strengths consist of my warmth, humor, pride, joy, creativity, passion, and generosity. My friends tell me I am charismatic, powerful, strong, and have a regal manner.
As a mother I am loving, patient & always lead by example. As a friend I am constant, reliable & trustworthy. As a co-worker I am fun, a team player & make the shift go by faster & have been told by my colleagues that they look forward to working with me. As a manager I am fair, hard working & go above & beyond, my ER directors from adults & peds- have complimented my work ethic & have told me, they miss me when I'm not working. When it comes to relations, you can expect me to be adventurous, fun, and highly energetic. But, when I am in love I am devoted, loving, loyal & a freak behind close doors!  
So you see, I give 100 % to whatever I'm doing, and know how to have fun while doing it. Never underestimate the power of humor. Laughter is the reason why most of my interactions are memorable. I've been told by many that my laugh is infectious, but mostly smiling & kind words are what spreads good karma when I'm around. It also helps that I have a charismatic personality!
 I AM a great mother
 I AM a loyal daughter
 I AM a trustworthy friend
 I AM a hard worker
 I AM a humorous nurse
 I AM a fair manager
 I AM a creative writer
 I AM an amateur photographer
 I WILL be a studious grad student
 I WILL fulfill my destiny!

 I AM a loving Mami!

I AM a loyal friend!

I AM ME!

I AM ME!

Love me or leave me!

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