Hey Bloggers,
So, it’s been a while since I last blogged. There is no excuse, I have been struggling with my new position, I’m afraid to get attached to anybody @ work & the more I practice nursing the less I want to do it; it’s like I am starting to resent it.
I feel like I was traumatized, whenever I get comfortable -something happens & I have to start all over again. Which, makes me feel like I should not allow myself to get comfortable. Everything that happens to me forces me to readapt. From my dad leaving @ 14 years old, to loosing my closest loved ones, it has been a very jagged journey for me. Emotionally draining, physically exhausting & causing my demeanor to continuously change. My resilience has become consistent & forced upon me.
At times I allow all these losses & changes anger me, but I continue to learn more about myself. As I evolve I’ve acquired the ability to mentally coach myself into to a positive space. This task may sound simple, but being a very stubborn person- thanks to my dad, it has been an ability difficult to acquire for me. I’m still learning how to manage my thoughts positively & not allow the outside environment to disrupt my inner peace. I don’t think humans realize how fragile our inner peace is & how it can be easily disrupted.
I sometimes feel uncomfortable when people tell me that they admire my strength, because in reality when the doors are closed & I am completely by myself I cry relentlessly, until my tear ducts can no longer produce tears. Then I hear the voices of my son or my nephew, who currently live with me, & I put my strong face mask back on.
The more time I spend by myself I have learned how to reflect on all those things that I have overcome & realize I still have a ways to go. So, you see my consistent resilience was forced upon me, but my strength continues to be fueled.
So I write this entry to celebrate all the women & men who have been forced into being strong & resilient consistently. I want all of you to learn how to take time for yourself & applaud yourself for all the situations you have overcome & how you continue to stay strong & not give up!
Don’t allow any situation, no matter how bad it may feel, disrupt your inner peace! This to shall pass & better days will come, surround yourself with people who love & appreciate you. Celebrate all your triumphs & let go of all your disappointments. Focus on your inner peace & happiness & allow the universe to bless you with all the good you can imagine! Stay blessed!
So, it’s been a while since I last blogged. There is no excuse, I have been struggling with my new position, I’m afraid to get attached to anybody @ work & the more I practice nursing the less I want to do it; it’s like I am starting to resent it.
I feel like I was traumatized, whenever I get comfortable -something happens & I have to start all over again. Which, makes me feel like I should not allow myself to get comfortable. Everything that happens to me forces me to readapt. From my dad leaving @ 14 years old, to loosing my closest loved ones, it has been a very jagged journey for me. Emotionally draining, physically exhausting & causing my demeanor to continuously change. My resilience has become consistent & forced upon me.
At times I allow all these losses & changes anger me, but I continue to learn more about myself. As I evolve I’ve acquired the ability to mentally coach myself into to a positive space. This task may sound simple, but being a very stubborn person- thanks to my dad, it has been an ability difficult to acquire for me. I’m still learning how to manage my thoughts positively & not allow the outside environment to disrupt my inner peace. I don’t think humans realize how fragile our inner peace is & how it can be easily disrupted.
I sometimes feel uncomfortable when people tell me that they admire my strength, because in reality when the doors are closed & I am completely by myself I cry relentlessly, until my tear ducts can no longer produce tears. Then I hear the voices of my son or my nephew, who currently live with me, & I put my strong face mask back on.
The more time I spend by myself I have learned how to reflect on all those things that I have overcome & realize I still have a ways to go. So, you see my consistent resilience was forced upon me, but my strength continues to be fueled.
So I write this entry to celebrate all the women & men who have been forced into being strong & resilient consistently. I want all of you to learn how to take time for yourself & applaud yourself for all the situations you have overcome & how you continue to stay strong & not give up!
Don’t allow any situation, no matter how bad it may feel, disrupt your inner peace! This to shall pass & better days will come, surround yourself with people who love & appreciate you. Celebrate all your triumphs & let go of all your disappointments. Focus on your inner peace & happiness & allow the universe to bless you with all the good you can imagine! Stay blessed!
