Samantha Jones vs. Charlotte York

Hello fellow bloggers,

Once again my insomnia has lead me to blog this morning. We had a very rough night last night @ work, but like I was explaining to my family, my work does not feel like a job; I love what I do, whether it be putting in a heparin lock or assisting a difficult physician with patient placement- I love both of my jobs! 

The night shift allows for a special type of bond to occur between patients- staff & coworkers. As a nurse & a logistics manager on the night shift, I have time to interact with my patients & coworkers during the most trying of times. I have been @ patient's bedside during the most scariest of situations & also been there to see them leave my facilities in better health. I share a special bond with my night crews @ both facilities, a bond that makes those relationship stick longer. I love that all my coworkers, even attendings appreciate my humor & miss me when I'm  not @ work. I've had both, colleagues & patients tell me they look forward when I come to work; it elevates my confidence, it makes me feel appreciated! & that is just food for my soul!

As for my title: Samantha Jones vs. Charlotte York, I was having this conversation with both of my crews @ both facilities; & the discussion became heated when I was talking to both genders. The men were all for the Samantha Jones in me, but the woman sided with the Charlotte York side of me. I just became confused, but did come away with the following theory: to enjoy myself while I can & not take anything so seriously. I always tell my girlfriends who are married, that I miss my best friend, but @ the same time my guy friends tell me, that- best friend did not feel the same way about me because of how he betrayed me. I love my girlfriends for keeping hope alive & I love & appreciate my guy friends for keeping it real for me. 

Somebody I use to respect & confide in, once told me that the things that I'm most scared of are worth delving into because those things are worth facing your fear for! Now looking back, I think he was just blowing smoke up my a**, but I do appreciate the sentiment. 

I now believe that the Samantha Jones part of my ego emerges to protect me from getting hurt, but the Charlotte York part of my ego yearns for something stable in my life. As I get older & see my children becoming adults, the Charlotte York part of me wants someone to share my life with. 

If anything I have learned how to appreciate & cherish those who love & appreciate me & that includes my family, friends & coworkers! As for those who betrayed me, it's all good- if you didn't appreciate what you had in me, it's your lost & my gain.

In the mean time I will enjoy those who I love & show me love back:

My Auntie, Mami & middle baby girl! Delilah supporters!

My Lily & Joanna- my Charlotte supporters:

Guma, he bought out the Samantha Jones in me by convincing me that I am beautiful!

 Jessica, 1 of my Charlotte supporters @ SBMC

 Jenny, a Samantha supporter @ SBMC

 My PACU crew from SBMC: Jess, Dr. Smith & Jenny, all Samantha supporters!

Love them, all about having fun & enjoying life!

As for enjoying life, we always enjoy the food & how luck am I to be where there are so many cultures to enjoy!

@ Penang's Malaysian/Thai cuisine:

Roti Canai

Pad Thai Shrimp

Sarang Burong

Beef Rendang

@ Applebee's

my favorite: Mojito

Apple crisp supreme

Oreo deluxe

Sangria

@ McCloone's

A glass of white wine & Coconut Shrimp

@ Centroamericano

Ceviche

@ El Meson

Frijoles arroz amarillo con camarones y platano frito

Spending time with the baby brat:

Making sure my youngest looks sharp, like his Mama

& finally some Marley Love:

Quotes:

Th real winners in life are the people who look @ every situation with an expectation that they can make it work or make it better- B. P.

Birthday Celebration

Good morning fellow bloggers,

I have to share my 3 day birthday celebration with you all. I have to say for the past couple of years I always worked on my birthday- it never really bothered me, but I really enjoyed this year's birthday & am continuing the celebration throughout the week!
I was off on Friday, which I used as my prep day, in which I went to get my hair done & a mani & pedi:

This is Juana, my hairstylist, she made me look fabulous for my bday:

 My manicure is so girly & summery

 Matching pedicure:

Thanks Alisha for doing my make up:

 Denise & me looking fly & getting ready for the night:

Had to get a side shot of the outfits:

Trying to find a spot to dance, & take pictures:

have to get a better photographer- Tay!

The day of my bday, I went to an Asian food market to get ingredients for pool party:

There was allot of Asian decor- I had to take pictures of it:

So many different types of teas!

My auntie fixed me a good old fashioned country bday dinner:

fried chicken, potato salad, mac & cheese & collards:

I am so special, that I had 2 cakes on my bday:

 One from my mami & auntie & another from my brats:

So after a family dinner, we got ready for pool party:

Ready to test the waters!

 Kissy faces:

 After a perfect dive!

there goes my fabulous hair-do!

The day after my bday, my mami & auntie & me went to the cemetery to build flower beds for our loved ones:

 half way there, Eric's & Tomasa's grave almost there:

 Victor's grave done!:

I also had to go to the Hack, where they had food for Jodi & me for our bdays:

The week before my bday, I went to balloon fest. with my Filipino sista:

 Lil Kev, me & Lils:

 Justin Timberlake & me:

 Dinner in an Asian restaurant:

In front of a choi pond!

I know I have not written too much on this post or my previous post, but I am learning how to let go of things & people who weigh me down & focus on the things & people who uplift me. I am so grateful & blessed for everything positive in my life. I can never complain about my life, I have a beautiful family who are on their way to successful lives, I am also blessed to have people in my life who love me & believe in me. It's nice to know that I am loved, these people have made my new life more bearable, & for this I am humbled & grateful!

So as navigate my new life, I feel like everything will fall into place in time & as for my loneliness, I have to take those feelings & put them on the back burner, because I have much to accomplish & I'm not getting any younger! Here is to working hard & enjoying life & those you love: Cheers! (Even though I don't drink, I'm starting to learn how to enjoy good wine)

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Grateful & Blessed

Good afternoon fellow bloggers,

I have been feeling sorry for myself lately, but someone close to me has made me realize I have allot to be grateful for. So, needless to say, I have begun to practice how to increase my happiness by focusing on what I have & not dwelling on what I don't have. So, here I go: I am blessed to have a beautiful family:

My beautiful Mami & daughter, Sasha

My beautiful daughters & nephew: Sasha, Shadasha, Sade, Me & Derreck

even on the phone she's beautiful

Pool time /w my beautiful babies

Kissy faces

Even though my Bebe is not with us I am grateful for him, I love you Bebe & Shami:

I am grateful for my son & dog: Shamorr & Marley:

Although I don't spend allot of time with them I love them /w all of my heart!

My god- daughter, Micah, learning how to play dominoes @ my house:

& I cannot forget my sisters from other mothers, they force me to see my flaws & do better:

Denise, who tells me "Beeitch please! just do it & stop being a weak bitch!"

She really know how to encourage me- I love her to death, 27 years of friendship!

Arlene, my Caribbean sista, that says to me, just have fun, you deserve it- you always worry too much

12 years of friendship

Lils, who always tells me, you can do better D, you have a good heart & deserve the best:

She reminds me that I'm beautiful from the inside & out! 8 years of friendship

Joanna, who always listens to me & says, "No, D, you're better than that, you deserve better"

She is the one who listens & does not judge me- 8 years of friendship

 I can't forget my vanilla sista, who was my buddy when in the middle of nowhere of NM: Holly:

 & continues to hold me down! 4 years of friendship & counting

I also have brothas, whom have been there for me in times of need & they don't judge my Samantha Jones period, they have actually encouraged it, but always tell me to take it easy- they do keep it real /w me:

This guy has been with me since birth & he still lives in my heart:

He comes to me in my dreams & tells me, you will be ok, this to shall pass, just be patient!

Although I have no picture of this dude, he has been my friend for 28 years; he has been in & out of my life for almost 30 years & he has seen all my trials & tribulations & he continues to cheer me on: 

Aaron Williams, he was so sad for me when my brother passed away, he lived with us briefly & knew my brother very well. He also was there before I had kids & was very upset when their father decided to leave us. I miss you Aaron & hope you are doing well, & will check on you soon.

This kid has been along for the ride to, for 28 years. We use to hit the clubs heavy when we were kid less & care free:

Every time we talk, he's like "Twig, Twig, I am so proud of you", & although I have never told you, Ez, it means allot to me; & when you say it, it makes me feel like I can do anything I put my mind to- thanks brotha

My god-daughters & their parents have been here for me since 2001:

Eric, Monique, Mecca & Micah

Monique still thinks I have an amazing story to tell & wants to manage my biography- Love her

This guy was there when I was married & when I was getting my divorce: 

Ron: in some way you gave me back my confidence- you always remind me that I am who I am & that is my true beauty, I don't apologize for who I am! Thanks Ron: 4 years of friendship & counting

This guy was one of my preceptors back in 2004, it is because of him that I know my heart blocks; he continues to teach me how to be a better nurse & is now teaching me how to express my energy into positive ways- love you Gilbert!

& Yes he disapproves of my Samantha Jones period- he believes I'm a better person & have more positive things to do! 8 years of friendship & counting

This guy has only been in my life 1.5 years & he has become my conscious: Barry

He wants me to get over 1 person in particular- I'm working on it brotha- & I appreciate the fact that you don't judge my actions & know that I am genuinely a good person.

So you see, I have plenty to be grateful for- I am truly blessed! I have a beautiful family & wonderful friends, whom have my back & believe in me, when I don't believe in myself! I love them so much & am blessed to have them in my life!

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