It has been quite some time since I last posted an entry. Every year, since 10/95, I always get blue on Septembers. Not sure if it's due to the change in weather or because it's a month before my brother's death anniversary. This year it has been tougher for me to shake this feeling, since I use to grieve this loss with my mom. Now, with her absence it has affected me more profoundly! I thank God everyday for the gift of my grand daughter, she was meant to be born when she was, she is the reason I continue to fight my demons. She is so precious to me! Whenever I am feeling sorry for myself I pull up a video or a picture of her, and her images inspire me to continue my journey. It also helps that I am blessed to have amazing family & friends that remind me of who I am & what I am capable of.
As for the title of this entry, my life's timeline has been very sporadic & it has made for a very rich & interesting reality, with many highs & lows. I can never complain, when I share my reality with other people they tell me I should write a book. All the negative & positive situations that I have experienced have enriched my life in so many ways! My low moments of life have allowed me to gain strength, my highs moments have allowed me to accumulate gratitude & have humbled me. It was meant for me to have my 5 kids, they definitely are a reminder of my capabilities! My grand daughter has been another blessing, although she in NM, her presence has been inspirational. It pains me that she lives so far away & I am missing all her milestones, but my son face times me every Sunday & I get to see her react to my image & my voice.
Now, I am preparing to welcome another grand baby into my family! My middle daughter is currently carrying my 1st grandson! My legacy will continue with them, being a grand parent has made me realized how often God blesses me, & for his blessings I am thankful, humbled, & grateful!
As a parent all you want for your children is their success & happiness, & I am definitely witnessing those things in my children.
I can't forget to mention my friends, who have become my family. These amazing people have been @ my side through my highs & lows & they remind me of my strengths & capabilities. Joanna & Denise text me daily to make sure I keep it moving & turn my blues into rainbows! My boys, Charles, Mel & Barry remind me that I am strong enough to shake those blue feelings off, & for that I am thankful. So, let me share these beautiful people with you:
Denise & me
Joanna & me
My sons & me
My cousin Rob & me
My kids (missing Bebe)
Mel & me
Lil Somaya & me
My staff & me
My Peds ED staff
Paula & me
So as you can see, all these people encourage me, they tell me that I'm a positive influence on their lives, but in fact, they are the positive influence in my life. And for that I am thankful to God, may he continue to bless me with beautiful people & positive situations!
