Prosperous Soul: Ambition vs. Responsibility

Good morning bloggers,

So as most of you know I had a mini vacation & decided to go to Las Vegas, NV with one of my co-workers. It tickled me that all of my friends were so excited for me to get some R & R, everybody knows that I work everyday & only have 1 day a week off 3 wks/month & 1 wkd off monthly, to sum it all up I only have 5 days off a month. And no I am not a doctor or clergy, but I do have their hours. I really don't mind, just because work does not feel like work to me. I love what I do @ both my jobs & I can't say enough about my colleagues, they're family to me. Needless to say I love going to work & don't mind the hours.
My only regret is that it does limit my time with my biological family & it has caused some chaos with my youngest son. Time has definitely made the situation much better, & my son understands that I am the only one providing, he still doesn't like it- but I am working on it. I try to make it a point to spend time with him on my days off, but he always manages to slip out & be with his friends instead.
The 4 day wkd retreat was indeed what the doctor ordered, to just rest & focus on myself & not worry about anything including Marley. I needed this vacation, my body told me so when we got there! I was suppose to take a nap & winded up sleeping until the next day- my body needed to be re-energized & it got that after 1 night! I was glad to hear that one of my closest friends was also in sin city, so we got a chance to catch up & she still encourages me to publish my blog & write a book- she still thinks I'm amazing; thanks Holly I love you & miss you, can't wait to spend time with you & your family in May for Bebe's graduation!
Before going on vacation, I was offered a job @ New York Presbyterian Hospital, & I have to tell you it was very hard turning down the offer. For the longest time I have been saying I want to move back to my beloved NYC, but I have to hold off until my youngest son graduates & goes off to college. There is something about the city of Manhattan that draws me back to it, I don't know what it is, but I am hoping it will be my true love (you never know).
When I got back home from my mini vacation, I stumbled upon some news regarding my ex, congratulations, you finally got what you wanted a baby @ 45! I wish you the best life has to offer- mazal tov!
As for me, my true work begins, I had dinner with another close sister, Monique- she also continues to encourage me & really believes I have a chance @ a book. Now I am hearing the same encouragement from 2 very different women, 1 a physician & the other a lawyer, both intelligent & respected & their opinions are highly revered by me. I owe it to myself to take a chance @ my passion, which is writing. And although I am in the process of returning to grad school, I have to explore this option; I owe it to my craft. It would be irresponsible of me if I don't!
Hence the title to this entry: Ambition vs. Responsibility- am I being ambitious by working this hard & trying to pursue all that I want to achieve, or do I owe it myself to do all these things & it is my responsibility to achieve all these goals?????
I leave you all with images of my short retreat in LV:

The Bellagio water show