How are you guys? I had a very eventful weekend, of course it all started @ work. Had been working since Friday, Sunday was my 3rd 12 hour shift & after a break less Saturday night working on a pt who was sick beyond imagination- I came in Sunday night ready to personally & physically transfer the pt to the CCU. As I transferred pt to the bed from the chair, they became unresponsive & the eyes dilated & they were apneic, & turned blue! I called a code & after 9 minutes of sinus brady & no blood pressure, pt went into a pulse less electrical activity for 19 minutes, after intubation, insertion of a central line & pushing several life saving drugs, we got pt back in a sinus tachycardia rhythm in the 150's! God, I love my job!
Unfortunately, once stabilized, pt went to CCU & expired @ 12 am. I felt so bad because on Saturday night I had become so frustrated with this patient- I had 3 drips to manage: lasix, primacor, & insulin which I was titrating every hour & checking her blood sugars every hour, needless to say I couldn't make the patient comfortable. Went o CT dept with pt, which showed significant amounts of fluid in the lungs bilaterally. Taking care of very sick people make me realize how fragile life can be. It has certainly made me more aware that I should take care of my health & it should be priority. Having delayed death temporarily really has been a rude awakening to me. I now realize, more than ever, that if it's meant to be it will be, no body can change God's plan.
On a lighter note, the leaves have started changing colors & have begun to fall. I have been made aware that I am working too much & neglecting what has been important to me, my family. It dawned on me that I need to be there for my teenage son; having lost my 16 year old- I feel like I have to pay more attention to my 14 year old son. I made it to one of his soccer games last week & felt like I have been missing out on his accomplishments. I hope he understands that I have to work to provide for our family. Hopefully my schedule, will lighten up soon & I find a more manageable living space for us. Being a single parent is hard, but I know my kids know that I love them & will do whatever it takes to make sure they have. I have no doubt in my mind that my kids will be successful! I am so proud of my daughters, they are now 23, 22, & 21 (this year anyway) & neither of them want kids, they are focused on obtaining their degrees & establishing themselves. As for my sons, Chris is planning to re-enter school next year for engineering, Bebe is trying to figure himself out & is currently working on registering @ PVHS in NM. Shamorr has been doing great @ WOHS & playing soccer & becoming more fluent in Spanish.
And as for my lovely daughters, I am so proud of these chicks! Graduating high school has been the first of many accomplishments to come, next year we will be celebrating 2 college graduations & pushing on to Grad school! These girls have definitely inherited their Mami's drive! No obstacle in life is unaccomplishable, with family & friends that love you & have faith in you- obstacles are manageable & it's just a matter of time that we get to that place were we feel successful. My time is coming & it feels good that my family is with me along the way. And I can't forget my friends, without them I wouldn't be writing this blog. Thanks to Beth, Monique, & Jodi for reminding me that I am special & I have a voice & it commends to be heard! Love you girls so much!
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