Hello fellow bloggers, sorry for not blogging in the past 2 days- but I have been busy working & sometimes I'm too tired to blog. Anyway, I have to tell you, I don't know if it's the weather- but I've been very emotional today. It has been raining for the past few days here in NJ & I have been feeling a little blue.
I was rounding on PACU tonight & one of the nurses pulled me over & asked me what my secret was? And I replied, "what secret?"& she said you're always so happy & whenever you see anybody you greet them & have this big smile on your face. I told her, it's a mask, inside I am hurting & then I started tearing, then crying! I was so mad @ myself! Other nurses came to me & said this is not the Delilah we know, what's wrong, & I told them a little bit of my story & they encouraged me that it was meant not to be. I love that they offered there support, but, I'm mad that I allowed my emotions to overwhelm me. I had to take 10 minutes to recollect myself- they gave me tissues & water & made me laugh a little bit, but this can't happen again!
I think that deep down, I know the holidays are coming & it's going to be my first holiday season in 13 years with just the kids & me. It saddens me that I won't be able to give them a Christmas that they are accustomed to, but I will try my best.
As for my quote for the day, I leave you with this thought:
It is God's blessing, it is the path that God chose for you here in Earth. Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following our legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our dream. - Paulo Coelho
By blogging & sharing my tribulations & triumphs- I feel like I am being filled with enthusiasm, & when I publish my book (hopefully) I would have followed my legend. I hope to confront my dream soon & this blog is my start to fulfilling my dream.
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