Everybody that I work with @ HUMC & SBMC, know me as a very happy & funny person who loves to work & dance. I have received positive feedback from my patients, co-workers, directors & even people that don't even work with me. I love going to work & I know it has been very therapeutic for me in a way I can't even imagine. My only worry is that when I am home, if I'm not blogging or busy doing something I feel the sadness & loneliness creep in! I use to love being still & looking @ my life - feeling satisfied & happy with where I was in my life & family. Now a days I cringe when I don't have anything to do, not that- that happens often.
I do miss my previous lifestyle & loved being in a relationship, but I have slowly built my brick wall back up again & don't think I will be able to trust again. Maybe one day, I will be able to sit still & have the same feelings of contentment & satisfaction, but for now I have to hustle & make sure my family gets through this very chaotic period.
I have always been a giving person in all my relationships & there were times that I questioned my practices & was even criticized by close friends & family regarding my ways. But, I can truly say that I never took from anybody or took advantage of any situation & I don't regret loving hard. I leave you with this quote, which I try to live by on a daily basis:
The conception of I is not known, take heed of the practices of giving, ETHICS, and patience - Nagajuna
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