In the midst of my 9 night work strecth, the weather has changed dramatically & literally in my life! Last night was my 5th night working & I have successfully thrown myself into my work & have been very happy doing so.
This morning I slept in & woke up to a cold & empty house. When you have teenage children, they don't want to be bothered with you. I'm not sure how I feel about that just yet, but I have had a hard time adjusting to that fact. At this age they just want money & to hang out with their friends.
Not only has the weather changed but my social status is officially changed to divorce. I know I should be happy, but I'm not! I loved being married & I loved the feeling of family, which is something that I lacked in my childhood. I'm very thankful that I did have that feeling of family for 13 years, but am mad that he messed it up for us & didn't even want to fight or work on it.
People who know me & know of my relationship with my ex-husband knew how much I loved him. I just can't believe who he has become & how he can ruin our family unit; & although the kids are not his biological kids, he is the only good father they have known.
I'm sorry, this blog is suppose to be inspirational- so let me stop being sorry for myself & clean up the mess & move on.
So, we are celebrating my Filipino daughter's birthday tomorrow morning; I am so proud of her she graduated college & is preparing to go to med school! I am so excited for her, we will be eating an El Salvadorian breakfast in honor of her birthday & her accomplishments! I guess we can also celebrate my new beginning as well.
I also have to apologize for not posting a blog, but I am a single mami & have to work for a living & sometimes am too tired, but I will try to @ least 3 times a week.
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