Good afternoon bloggers,
This letter was written from my heart with blessings from my conscience- I hope you enjoy:
This has been heavy on mind since 2011, but I have allowed it to manifest too long & I need to let it go.
I have completely forgiven you, not for you, but for me. Over the years I have made it my priority to learn how to love myself completely, & part of that self love includes healing the broken parts of me. And although you broke me profoundly, I don’t think you know how much that pain you, not only caused me but, it also affected my family.
For 13 years of my life we built, managed, supported, loved, affected, inspired, & learned from each other. Although I know that you can’t make anybody love you back, I now know that it was not me that caused the demise of our marriage.
I’ve learned so much on my life journey & one of the lessons I have learned is that when a person doesn’t love themselves they are incapable of loving anyone else. A part of me wants to believe that you once loved me in your own way, & with that love, you opened up your heart to my family. This was one of the reasons I fell completely in love with you & chose to compromise what I needed from our relationship.
I appreciate all the lessons you taught me & mine. The most valuable lesson you have taught me is to never loose myself to anyone else & to be completely honest with myself & share that honesty with my partner.
As for your influence on me & my family, it was profound & continues to be a part of their lives. They always seem to seek your approval, but they forget that you’re human & have flaws.
And although you can never bring yourself to talk to me or see me, I understand. I understand that I am your truth & the pain you caused me, will forever haunt you- the loss of those twins & the manipulation you put me through, it only made me realize that you were not for me anymore.
The emotional abuse that I endured after that miscarriage was enough to break anybody down. But, you see, I’m made from a very different cloth! Those threads consist of resilience, strength, & a very strong will to survive & succeed.
I only hope that I lead all my kids & grandkids by example & they can one day say, my mom was successful no matter what life threw @ her & I am exactly like her!
True love is loving yourself first & being there for those you hold dear to you. I never claimed to be perfect, my insanity is never malicious, it always comes with positiveness & a touch of loudness & genuinely from my big heart!
If you never speak to me again, I’m good with that- but I want you know that you fed into my strength, wisdom & , resilience in a big way & for that my brother, I thank you!
Sincerely,
Dee
This letter was written from my heart with blessings from my conscience- I hope you enjoy:
I have completely forgiven you, not for you, but for me. Over the years I have made it my priority to learn how to love myself completely, & part of that self love includes healing the broken parts of me. And although you broke me profoundly, I don’t think you know how much that pain you, not only caused me but, it also affected my family.
For 13 years of my life we built, managed, supported, loved, affected, inspired, & learned from each other. Although I know that you can’t make anybody love you back, I now know that it was not me that caused the demise of our marriage.
I’ve learned so much on my life journey & one of the lessons I have learned is that when a person doesn’t love themselves they are incapable of loving anyone else. A part of me wants to believe that you once loved me in your own way, & with that love, you opened up your heart to my family. This was one of the reasons I fell completely in love with you & chose to compromise what I needed from our relationship.
I appreciate all the lessons you taught me & mine. The most valuable lesson you have taught me is to never loose myself to anyone else & to be completely honest with myself & share that honesty with my partner.
As for your influence on me & my family, it was profound & continues to be a part of their lives. They always seem to seek your approval, but they forget that you’re human & have flaws.
And although you can never bring yourself to talk to me or see me, I understand. I understand that I am your truth & the pain you caused me, will forever haunt you- the loss of those twins & the manipulation you put me through, it only made me realize that you were not for me anymore.
The emotional abuse that I endured after that miscarriage was enough to break anybody down. But, you see, I’m made from a very different cloth! Those threads consist of resilience, strength, & a very strong will to survive & succeed.
I only hope that I lead all my kids & grandkids by example & they can one day say, my mom was successful no matter what life threw @ her & I am exactly like her!
True love is loving yourself first & being there for those you hold dear to you. I never claimed to be perfect, my insanity is never malicious, it always comes with positiveness & a touch of loudness & genuinely from my big heart!
If you never speak to me again, I’m good with that- but I want you know that you fed into my strength, wisdom & , resilience in a big way & for that my brother, I thank you!
Sincerely,
Dee
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